won't you stay asleep?

some of my thoughts to share with readers today.

when you feel betrayed, probably you'll weep that you feel people around you not being genuine. sometimes you feel deceived. your social life is involved around fake people that previously you think they are actually your best friends. you don't feel adaptable with the group of people anymore. thinking what are the issues, why are they treating you with such manner? they probably have their own reasons. they started to abandon you. perceiving a silent yet hurtful conversations; unlike the days you and your friends used to. trading venom in the eye contact. so many questions emerged in your head. wondering what makes the hatred formed in them? what went wrong? what is there that set you and your friends apart? have you did something wrong? since when? ...you start to apply dark shades in your world. and cry a sad melody. realizing how mean the world actually is.

in my own opinion, you must accept the fact that the world is actually mean. people just won't understand you. your weep don't worth a damn, so don't cry. the fact is you were appreciated like a best friend. but somehow there was a misunderstanding I suppose; straying to something more disastrous, leaving a scar behind. your friends used to make you feel secured but it's now the other way round because you couldn't trust anyone anymore. seeking your friends you used to hang out with to express dissatisfaction, but they're all now lies to you. couldn't share anymore secrets. they couldn't speak out the truth to hurt your feelings. but too bad it hurts even more when the unintended truth revealed. the abandonment? the reluctant conversations? the tantrums? the sour faces? it all happened for a reason. stop questioning yourself how why and what. you have misbehaved. anyway it's better to know the truth than living beyond lies. as long as there's betterment, they won't be leaving you for good.